Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Doom & Gloom or Sally Sunshine

Tomorrow is THE day. It will either be a very happy day...or a very sad day. I go for another ultrasound tomorrow. We have to see a heartbeat tomorrow, or, according to my RE, this pregnancy will not be viable. I'll be 7 weeks.

I'm anxious. I'm nervous. I'm scared. I know there is nothing I can do that will change what we see tomorrow. There is nothing I could have/should have/would have done differently.

I'm constantly being asked by family how I'm feeling. While my standard answer is fine or normal...what I'm really feeling is apprehension and worry. Physically, I do feel fine. The girls are sore...but that's the progesterone. I'm not nauseous. But I wasn't with Lexi either. I've felt no cramps...had no spotting. Nada. Zilch. Zero. No symptoms that would tell me anything either way. So at 6w6d I'm still in a holding pattern. Still looking for answers...tomorrow, I will get them. Please cross your fingers for me.

7 comments:

raisingmiles said...

Big hugs and sticky vibes to you. I hope I have access from Mexico so I can check in on you...

Suzy, Not a Fertile Myrtle said...

Praying for sunshine for you tomorrow!

Courtney said...

Sending lots of crossed fingers and toes to you. And tons of supportive hugs. xoxo

Mo and Will said...

Will be sending all positive thoughts and blog stalking you until you post news. So hoping for the best for your pregnancy.

Mo

s.e. said...

I do not pray but I want to start just for you. I am still hoping.

Wishing a miracle for you and in absense stregth, knowing that either way everything will be o.k.

Amanda said...

I'm praying for a wonderful appointment filled with only the happiest of news!

Mo and Will said...

thinking of you today