Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Healing

Today, I managed to talk to someone about my miscarriage without tears welling up, or getting choked up. A client of mine had called, and after we discussed business, he asked how Lexi was doing...then proceeded to ask when we will have another. Now, before you think this is a weird thing to be talking to a MALE client about...it's really not. He's a wonderful person and his daughter was born almost exactly one year after Lexi. We talk about our kids all the time. So when he asked when I plan on having another...I kind of hesitated and said "well, I actually just lost a baby about 3 weeks ago". He expressed his condolences and went on to tell me his wife lost one before his daughter was conceived. I was able to have a whole conversation with him without getting choked up. I don't know if it's because he experienced the same pain or not...but it felt good to be able to talk about it without sobbing.

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Lexi has her EI evaluation tomorrow. Both a speech and developmental therpist will be coming to my house at 9am to meet with Lexi. I sure hope things go well and that they think she qualifies.

5 comments:

(Erica) Rebel With.A.Cause said...

I totally get why you would be able to talk to him about it. I am glad that you are healing a little, I know how hard it is.

Good Luck with your appointment tomorrow, I am sure they will help her where she needs it.

Hugs,
Erica

Rotten said...

You will find that the more people you open up to, the more people who have been where you are. It still shocks me to this day when I tell someone who didn't know and they tell me that it happened to them.

s.e. said...

I hope you continue to have more of these healing moments. I remember even feeling guilty when it was easier to talk about it.

And you have such a great mindset for the EI evaluation. I work with many early childhood students as a speech therapist. Very few parents hope their child qualifies. What a healthy perspective that will only help Lexi in the long run!

raisingmiles said...

Glad you are healing a little.

Hope the appointment goes well for Lex.

andrea said...

*hugs*
hope the eval goes well today!