Monday, August 3, 2009

Dear Alexis,

You're 16 weeks old and Mommy has been back to work for 3 weeks. And it's been a hard 3 weeks. For both of us. I'm sorry I have to work, baby girl. I know that going to gramma's at 5am on Monday mornings isn't your favorite thing to me, it isn't Mommy's either. But I have to work. It physically hurts me to be away from you. Mommy can handle a few hours, but all day? Way too much for me to handle. I don't want to miss anything. We spent a long time together, just the 2 of us. First while you were growing in my tummy, and then your first 12 weeks of life. We cried together, slept together, ate together, played together, laughed together. It was just you and me kiddo. And Mommy misses that.

I hold you at night sometimes after your bottle, and you're in that cute "not quite asleep yet" stage. Your eyes are all droopy, but you hang on to me. And while I know it's just your reflexes, Mommy likes to think that you know what you're doing. It's during these quiet times together that Mommy gets overwhelmed with emotion. I love you so much. My eyes still well up with tears of happiness when I hold you close. I hope that when you're old enough to read these that we are still as close as we are now.

I love you.




Anonymous said...

holy smokes - this made me cry!!! and for what it's worth.... she IS hanging onto you because you're the MOMMY!!! And it just gets better and better....

Dreamer4agift said...

Braces Buncher here:-) I am supposed to return to work a week from tomorrow...and I'm not happy about it one bit. Going from every moment with my son, to being away for a 12hr shift just doesn't give me a warm feeling...but, I suppose that's how it has to be for now. ((hugs)) to you and Lexi as you continue to grow together.

Katie said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog. It means a lot to get support from people I've never met when I don't get any from my immediate family.