I'm boring

I must be the most boring person alive. I've again let this blog slip. Another week and a half has gone by without any posts...and I fear that I've lost the readers I did have.

I started my new job on the 14th. I both love it and hate it. I love it for all the obvious reasons...I work from home, pay is excellent, benefits are good, people are nice, products are interesting to learn. But I also hate it because this company is rather new. 2 years new. Well, 2 years this summer...Lexi is older than this company. And like any new company they haven't ironed out all the kinks yet. The corporate directory is almost non existent...so finding anyone is difficult. They have multiple platforms and it seems that there is not one person who has access to all of the platforms...which completely flabbergasts me since those platforms contain information essential to our jobs. I'm also feeling a little lost. At my old job, I was the go to person...the knowledgeable one. I knew how to navigate inside that global company...but here, I don't know anything...it's a smaller company and I can't figure out how to navigate it.

I'll be honest and say that I'm also missing the daily interaction with people. I miss being able to turn around and ask the person across the aisle what they do in such and such situation. I knew that I wouldn't have that when I accepted this position...but I am having a hard time adjusting to it. I know I've only been "on the job" for 6 business days. I'm still in training. I know this information will come with time...I'm just not a very patient person when it comes to my career.

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On a seperate note, Lexi's 2nd birthday party is April 3rd. We are having it the week before her actual birthday so we can celebrate with just her and DH and I on her actual special day. I'm having alot of conflicting emotions about this birthday. For her 1st birthday I was excited and happy...this time around I'm a little melancoly. She's really becoming her own little person, and while I'm happy to see that, I'm also sad because I know my days as her number one person are numbered. She's growing up at a rate too fast for my heart to handle. If you don't believe me, just look at this photo...


Tell me what about this says 2 year old??!! She looks so grown up in this photo, and so amazingly beautiful. I know I'm biased because I'm her mom...but I think she's stunning...I was just hoping for a few more "baby" photos.

Decision made

I've accepted the job offer. I really couldn't think of a good reason NOT to...besides the no IVF coverage. We will take DH's insurance for the time being...and use the 1 cycle we have left. If we end up pregnant...wonderful. If not, then at least I get to be with the child I have.

The more I think about it, the more excited I get. I've wanted this (work from home) for 2 years. And it's finally coming to fruition. I will get to participate in her childhood...take her to school, help with her homework, attend school functions. All things I was afraid I would have to miss because of my 4 hour commute.

The job itself is pretty awesome as well. Not to get to specific, but it's doing what I basically do now...just for another company, and slightly different product line. I get along great so far with my team (I've spoken to all but one of them) and they are all excited about me joining them.

I am sad to leave the people I currently work with behind. I've been here for 6 years...and have worked with the majority of people for that whole time. It will be hard to say goodbye to those that mentored me when I came aboard. They are patient, caring individuals who took me under their wing and helped make me the knowledgeable person I am today. I have them to thank for this new company wanting to hire me. I've learned from the best.

In a pickle

I know, I know...I'm a horrible blogger. But I'm in a pickle and need your advice. The job that I was interviewing for? Well, they offered it to me. They flew me out to meet the hiring manager last Friday (very nice guy btw) and made me an offer yesterday...more money...working from home 100%...I got along great with the manager and the 2 other sales people I spoke with. The downer? No IVF coverage. None, nada, zilch, zero. They are a fully insured company, but the policy is written out of Florida...which is not a mandated state.

DH's company follows IL law...which would give us one cycle covered (IL law says you get 6 IVF cycles, unless you have a live birth...at which time they will cover 2 more and since we did one after Lexi we would have one more). We could take out his insurance (my job change constitutes a life event for enrollment) and use the cycle there. But that would be it. No more.

If I stay where I'm at...I have maybe 1 MAYBE 2 cycles covered...procedures only...all drugs would be out of pocket.

So again...pros for taking new job and using DH's insurance:
No more 4 hour commute
working from home
no more train tickets (save $)
no more parking fees (save $)
pay increase
one cycle covered

Cons for taking new job:
No IVF coverage

Pros for staying where I am:
IVF coverage (1 or 2 cycles)

Cons for staying where I am:
4 hour commute

What do you think? Honestly...