I have no clue. We knew this was going to be our last insurance covered cycle. We knew that. But the possiblity that we wouldn't have ANY embryos to transfer never entered my mind. Sure, we've had crappy fertilization in the past...but I never thought I'd be faced with another cycle with no embryos (our very 1st cycle back in 2007 resulted in the same).
So now I'm faced with feeling like I'm not ready to give up...with the very real notion that I may have to. The RE seems to think the problem lies with DH's sperm. They ICSI'd the 10 mature eggs that they got. My eggs seemed to be "up to par"...but still, the same result. Dr C mentioned donor sperm and IUI. He thinks it could work for us...since, again, he thinks the problem is DH's swimmers. But DH isn't 100% open to that idea. And I'm not there yet either.
How do you tell one child that they aren't biologically their father's when the other is? How does that affect the child? How would that affect Lexi? Would it? Would DH later disown that child in the event our marriage ended? Could he legally? Those are the questions swimming in my head.
The wound is so raw right now...