Friday, January 27, 2012

Heartbroken

My clinic just called.  Of my 13 eggs retrieved, 10 were mature for ICSI...but none fertilized.  We have zero embryos.  None.  Zilch.  Zero. 

I'm heartbroken right now.  We have no more insurance coverage.  We can't afford another cycle.  We're done.  This was my worst nightmare.  Literally, I was up last night worrying about how things were going.  I guess my subconcious knew.

I have no idea how to deal with this right now. 

14 comments:

Suzy, Not a Fertile Myrtle said...

O I am so, so sorry. I don't know what to say except I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

((Hugs))

JW Moxie said...

Amy, I'm so very sorry. There are no words that can ever make this better. Please know that I'm sending you love and am abiding with you.

Betty Rubble said...

FUCK. I'm not going to apologize or the language...this SUCKS. I will keepyou in my prayers.

Tina said...

I'm sorry.

Valerie said...

I am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

Heartbroken for you - been there.

I am having to look at Donor eggs.. please take a deep breath, than another, and join me in the belief - it will all work out. I KNOW seems like an impossibility.. and I am right there with you, but it is all we can do for now.

sending you hugs from california.

Jenn

Louise said...

How devastating. I am so so sorry, that just is so unfair.

Erin said...

I'm so very sorry, Amy.

juliane2004 said...

I am so sorry.

Heather said...

Stopping by from LFCA. I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself.

Egg said...

Oh, I am so sorry. xoxxo

Mazzy said...

I am so, so sorry, Amy. You are in my prayers.

Amanda said...

Here from LFCA. Sorry to hear about your news. Wishing you all the strength you need to get through this trying time. *hugs*

Her Royal Fabulousness said...

Hre from LFCA. I just want you to know I just had something similar happen on my first IVF. They got 23 eggs from me, 19 mature, and none fertilized. DH's sperm looked great. No explanation. We didn't do ICSI but I know how devastated you feel. I feel it too. Please contact me if you want to compare notes or anything.
herroyalfabulousness(at)gmail(dot)com