Tuesday, September 13, 2011
What do you do when you've lost all interest in sex? That is where I am right now...and it's causing a huge rift between DH and I. It's been over 2 months since our last initimate connection. It's not for his lack of trying though. I just don't ever feel "in the mood". DH and I argue on a regular basis...and it all stems from our lack of sex life. From my inability to give him what he desires...again. What he doesn't seem to understand is that this problem is affecting me just as much as it is him...I'm just better at hiding it...of pushing it down into the recesses of my brain so that I don't have to feel broken again. But broken is exactly how I feel. And I suspect that it all stems from our IF diagnosis. But I can't be 100% sure. I mean, I know that is about when I began to lose interest. Before we started seeing the RE, sex became something that was done at a specific time of the month in order to acheive a goal...having a baby. When we had to start seeing the RE, I never was able to get back to the "sex for enjoyment" mindset I had before trying for a baby. And it's snowballed from there. And I don't know what to do about it.