Saturday, May 2, 2009

3 weeks

Miss Alexis is 3 weeks old. She seems to be getting SO big...even though I'm sure she's only about 7lbs now. The clothes she was swimming in before are fitting better, and she's a little more alert during the day. We are having gas issues. She's not a good burper and gets alot of gas in her tummy. She strains and strains to push it out, but it still hurts her. She's on breastmilk and formula, Similac Advanced...I'm thinking of switching her to the Sensitive...

As for me, I think I'm finally healing. The bright red blood stopped a few days ago and I'm no longer as sore where my stitches are. But now the emotional roller coaster begins. Lately, I've been feeling a little blue. I think it has alot to do with the fact that DH is back at work this past week, so I've pretty much been cooped up in the house alone with Lexi for the past 7 days. As the week as worn on, I've found myself letting her cry a little longer than I did before. But those cries make me want to cry as well. 99% of the time, I am able to soothe her, and know what she wants...but the other 1%...well, I don't know whether to pull my hair out or cry with her, or both. I've NOT had any feelings of hurting her, just wanted to state that up front. Just the blues.

I've also been feeling a little jipped. Let me say first, that I love Lexi to death and am SO glad she's here and healthy...but part of me feels jipped out of the last 4 weeks of pregnancy. I never "nested". I never had the anticipation of "are these the real thing". I never had any Braxton Hicks. My labor didn't go as I had wanted. It was a "normal" day and then BOOM, my water broke. I never got to say "Is this it?"...all I said was "This is it". Don't know why I feel this way, I just do. But again, Lexi is everything to me...and if having those last 4 weeks of pregnancy meant she would have had complications or anything, then I'm glad I didn't have them. I'd rather have her.

6 comments:

Jen said...

I know the feeling... from now on, it's all about the child(ren). Baby blues - had them too... I got meds for it - I broke down in the doctors office, so I guess that was a sign of postpartum depression!!!

Good luck!! Try Mylicon for the gas - it's a wonderworker...

A said...

I was feeling blue last week - thinking I wanted to cut my maternity leave short and go back to work, if only someone would take these boys for me! It has rained every freaking day, and it was beginning to feel so monotonous. So I forced myself to get out of the house. And it helped.

As for the gas, have you tried Mylicon? We were breastfeeding and supplementing with Similac Advance, but have up the BF just this past week. Jack doesn't burp well at all. And I don't have the patience or the attention span to burp him more than 5-10 minutes. He usually spits up a bit and has the hiccups an hour after eating, and sometimes the gas just appears to hurt him so badly. Not every time, but when he appears to be in pain, I give him a dose of the Mylicon and he's better in a few minutes. Just a thought. Hope it helps.

docgrumbles said...

I hope the blues lighten a bit for you. Mine got really bad when my husband went back to work. I recommend getting out of the coop any way you can.

seussgirl said...

I know how expensive that Similac gets; make sure to ask your pediatrician for samples and/or coupons! Every bit helps, right?

And I can relate to feeling gypped out of the end of a pregnancy. My boys were 10 weeks early, so I definitely missed out on a lot! It makes me feel like this might be my first "normal" pregnancy - I have no idea what to expect in those last 10 weeks!

I hope your blues go away!

Mel said...

I agree with both Mylicon issues from above.. worked WONDERS for my little L. I had to watch everything I ate, too... I cut out dairy completely for about a month and her gas all but disappeared. I have been slowly reintroducing it back in and she seems to be handling it better now. ;)

Baby blues.. had 'em. The 1% of not knowing what to do is exhausting. I cried with her many times and just had to put her down and walk away. Sometimes babies just need to cry to blow off steam. If she is fed, clean, not sick and warm? She is probably just overstimulated or overtired. It took me a while to figure that one out. It gets easier, though, I promise. You are doing awesome.

*hugs*

KimboSue said...

Boo for the blues. Hope they go away soon. I think I am not getting them due to hubby working from home so its not like I am truly left alone with Miles all day. He helps out when he can. And holy crap - 3 weeks already! I can't believe Miles is 17 days old today! It is already flying by!