I still am angry...but I decided to DO something about it. I WANT to be able to play with my daughter. I DON'T want to be the mom on the sidelines. I WANT to be involved. And I can't do that at 243.6lbs. So a little over a week ago, I started a "diet". And I use that term lightly. I'm not following WW, or Jenny, or Nutri System. I'm doing good old calorie counting and exercise. I signed up for My Fitness Pal, an online calorie, nutrition, exercise journal, and was SHOCKED at the calories/fat in some of the things I ate on a regular basis. I made the commitment. I was going to do this.
Last week was hard. I'm not going to lie. I walked 1 mile on Monday and Tuesday...ate within my nutritional allotment. Wednesday night I thought I blew it. I had fried shrimp. Savoured every one. But when I came home and input what I ate into my journal, I realized that I hadn't gone over my allotments. I had eaten so sensibly for breakfast and lunch, that even "splurging" a little that night didn't throw me into a tailspin. End result? I lost 4.2lbs last week.
So while my new journey isn't about getting pregnant (well, it will be...IVF #4 is this fall!!)...it's something I need your help with. I NEED people to motivate me. I NEED to be held accountable. I NEED people to ask me if I exercised this week. If I'm not held accountable...I may slip more than I would WITH you. Lexi is my motivation to do this. I want to be able to play with her and be active with her...and set GOOD examples for her.