Ants

I hate bugs.  Bugs of all kinds creep me out.  So imagine how creeped out I am to know that I have ants in my house.  Simple sidewalk ants that you see in the summertime...but they.are.in.my.house.  EW!  I've managed to get rid of them on the first floor by using ant traps and some spray (under my baseboards) but they are upstairs in my office!  I have a bird...so they are after any and all seed that the bird drops on the floor.  I try to vacuum everyday...but there are still some seeds I don't get.  The ant traps aren't helping because the ants just crawl under them (I have carpet in my office).  Anyone with ideas on how to get rid of them, sans fumagating my house?  Ugh! 

Growing Up

Dear Lexi,

I've been meaning to write this post for quite awhile now...but can never seem to get my thoughts straight.  You are 28 months old...but you are wise beyond your 2 years.  I'm amazed by you everyday.  Where just a few months ago you were struggling to say any words, you now use 7 and 8 word sentences.  I'm constantly floored to hear you say things like "Don't bump my chair, I don't like it"...and wonder where this opinionated, intelligent little girl came from. 

You even seem to be able to recall that on Tuesdays, Daddy goes to play poker...and will ask him, on Tuesday, if he's going to go play.  You have so much of him in you...his love of cars has clearly been ingrained in you as you LOVE to play with cars, "drive" Daddy's car, and ask him to "go racing".  His love of soccer is also one you share.  You are a great kicker and will make a great forward someday.  But you love all sports...and will ask to watch a "bateball" game or a "ocky" game if we pass one during channel surfing. 

I can't tell you enough how proud I am to be your mommy.  I marvel at your newest abilities...am dumbfounded by your use of words I didn't know you knew...and my heart swells when I look at you. 

You will forever be my first born.  My baby.  I will love you no matter what. 

Love,

Mommy

4 years of blogging

Wow...I missed my blogoversary.  4 years ago I started this blog as a way to vent about my first failed IVF attempt.  Never in a million years did I think that I would still be typing away 4 years later.  Thank you all for reading!!

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On another note.  I'm utterly devastated today.  As you may recall, earlier this year when I switched jobs, we enrolled in my husband's group medical on top of my own.  We did this because his was an HMO and in our state, HMO's are required by law to provide IVF coverage.  Which for us meant one last try at IVF.  Before we enrolled, I did my due diligence checking with my RE's office that they did in fact take this insurance.  Today, as I'm getting ready to make appointments...I learned that they no longer accept this insurance.  So we're back where we were 4 years ago.  Looking for an RE.  I'm devastated because this is our last shot.  There are no more chances after this one...and I really wanted to stay with the RE I trusted.  I did 2 cycles with her...and got pregnant both times.  I wanted to know I was with someone who knew my history and the office staff there does.  I LOVE them. But now, now I have to find a new RE.  And I don't have much time.  We only took the insurance for a year.  I mean, we could reenroll...but this is the only thing we are using this carrier for.  Everything else goes through my insurance.

Any ladies in the western Chicago suburbs?  Tell me who you go to?  Why?  What do you like about them...what don't you? Please...be honest?