Saturday, February 27, 2010

It's over :(

Lexi had her last swim class today...we were the only ones to show up!  Really?  Do people have that kind of expendable cash that they can pay for a class and not come?  Seriously, Lexi was the only one that was there EVERY week!

She didn't "pass" the class though to go on to Water Babies II...but her teacher, Angela, said that it was only because of her age.  Water Babies II starts them swimming away from their parents...and Lexi is in that "clingy" stage and doesn't want to be away from me.  But Angela said she'd be happy to have Lexi in her class again next session...well, when I tried to sign her up, they said the class was full!  Angela said she can take up to 10 kids, but the system was set at 5.  So we're on a wait list.  I can't tell you how bummed I am about it.  I didn't realize how much I look forward to spending that time with her, just us, until it was over.  I know we'll still have our Saturday mornings together...but it's amazing how much that swim class meant to me.

Oh well, let's hope someone cancels.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Last class

Lexi's last swim class is tomorrow morning.  I'm thinking of signing her up for another session...but I have to talk to her teacher and see if she should repeat the same class (Water Babies I) or take the next one (Water Babies II).  I want to know what the next class does different than this one.  I'm happy to repeat the same class, just to give her more exposure in the water...though DH and I were thinking of just taking her during the pool's open swim time.  I hesitate a little though because there is no structure then.  It's open to everyone and I'm afraid kids will be rough housing and splashing and will scare the beejesus out of her.  During class, it's her class and a few others, but they are structured.  No roughhousing.  Something to think about.


Conversation just overheard in my workplace:

Girl #1 ....yea, I'm actually expecting too

Girl #2 (presently 9 months along) Wow congratulations!  When are you due?

Girl #1  October.  We tried for a really long time and were actually supposed to start IVF in March, but it just happened on it's own!

OMG!  I think I just threw up in my mouth.  What is 8 weeks along?  Makes me ill.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

I was thinking about something the other day and a recent post by a fellow blogger really got me thinking about it. 

I've been blogging for 2 1/2 years. Which means I've been reading some blogs for AT LEAST that amount of time.  It blows my mind that I've been "following" the lives of people for that long.  People that I've never met face to face...yet care for as much as I would care for any of my IRL friends. 

There are numerous first birthdays coming up...and some just recently past.  And to think, that I "knew" these women before their babies were ever conceived really makes me think about how quickly time passes.  And now that Lexi is here, and herself almost a year old, I've ever cognizant about just how fast the time goes. 

She's no longer the helpless little baby that we brought home from the hospital.  She's developing a personality all her own and gaining more and more independence every day.  She is growing up before my eyes...and I'm both sad and happy about that.  Sad to see the "baby" year go, and happy that she's here to begin with.


On another note, Lexi broke my heart last night.  She was crying because we had woken her up from her nap (it was almost 7pm and she needed to be up so that she'd go to bed "on time") and reached for my mom while I was holding her.  I knew the time would come that she would seek comfort from my mom, her primary caregiver while we are working, but I wasn't prepared for the emotion that came with seeing that gesture.  I wanted to cry myself.  It cut to my core.  And while I know she doesn't mean to hurt my feelings, and that it's a normal thing, it was still the worst feeling.  My mom, seeing the situation, thankfully, left the room and I was able to comfort Lexi and she stopped crying.  We then enjoyed an extended bath and some extra cuddle time before bed.  She may not have needed it, but I did.  And I'm glad I was able to get my "Lexi fix".

Oh, and to answer Kimbosue's question...Lexi currently has 6 teeth completely in, and 2 more that just cut through.  She has 4 fully on top and 2 on the bottom...and 2 more on the bottom just cut through.  Yes, she has a mouthful of teeth!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Misc Photos

Lexi on Valentine's Day

A beautiful girl.

It had been awhile since we took pics with her bunny...this was on the 10th...her 10 month birthday. I like how she's looking at the bunny, almost as if to say "Hey, I haven't seen you in awhile!"

Love this picture.

But I love this one more.

Gimme the camera MOM!

I'm going to eat it!

Being silly


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A Newborn's Conversation with God

Someone sent this to me today...and while I'm not a deeply religious person...this still resonated with me and made me well up with tears. Enjoy.

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the small child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak." "

And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

God said, "You will simply call her, Mom ."

Friday, February 19, 2010

Been sick

Sorry I haven't posted...I've been sick for the last few days. Stomach issues, sore name it, I've got it. Today is the only day I made it in to work...and I only worked a half day from home yesterday before I passed out in bed.

So that's the story...hope to be back full swing next week.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Did she say what I think she did?

So last night, after her bath, I was getting Lexi ready for bed. We have a little "ritual" after her bath where I give her the diaper to hold while I put her onesie over her head and we "talk". So I'm saying "mom mom mom mom" over and over and it sounds like "mumumumumumum"...all of a sudden Lexi looked me dead in the eye and said "mum". So I said "mom" and she said "mum" back and forth. Part of me thinks she was just imitating me, but part of me thinks that she actually said "mom" and knew what she was saying. It warmed my heart to hear it.

She then proceeded to throw up her entire bottle all over me. Seriously, it was in my hair, down my front, down my back...everywhere. Gross. So as my hubby cleaned the carpet, and my mom cleaned up Lexi...I took a shower, all while I had the warm fuzzies from hearing my daughter say "mum"...whether she meant it or not.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

10 months

Dear Alexis,

It's been 10 months since your birth.
10 months since you entered this world with the most amazing cry.
10 months since I held you in my arms for the very first time.
10 months since I cried hot happy tears of joy.

It seems like a lifetime ago. I can't remember what life was like before you came to us. Nor do I want to. You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy, when sky's are grey. You'll never know, dear, how much I love you. We sing that song everynight just before you go to sleep. Mommy couldn't bear to sing the ABCs anymore, and this little diddy is so spot on.

You've mastered crawling this past month and are pulling up on everything and everyone. We've "taught" you how to get down safely off the couch (feet first) and you love climbing down and then raising your arms to get back up.

You're doing really well in swim class, I'm so proud of you. You don't cry in the water like some of the other babies and will willingly float on your back...something your teacher says most babies your age don't like to do.

Table foods remain a challenge...I think more for mommy than you. I'm so afraid you will choke on something that I don't offer you anything bigger than your windpipe...though I know I need to so that you learn to bite off small pieces. I know grandma works with you on that. I hope I won't become an overprotective momma...I want you to be able to explore and experience things for yourself...but I also want you safe. Daddy and I worked too hard to bring you into this world to see you harm yourself. I know bumps and bruises will happen, but if I can keep you safe, while still giving you your freedom, then that's the goal.

Your first birthday party is booked. It's so hard to comprehend that I only have one more "month" letter to write to you before you are a year. Where did the time go? I love you more than words can ever express.



Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Birthdays and Shoes

Lexi got her first pair of walkers yesterday. She's been wearing baby Chucks, but those don't have any real support and they were more for keeping her feet warm and looks than anything. But her auntie had taken her to get sized and fitted for shoes about a week ago, and they came in yesterday...

Very cute I think. Much nicer than the baby walkers I remember. Anyway, she LOVES her new shoes and will lift her pant leg up to show them to you. I'm thinking 4 more weeks and she'll be running around the house.

We've also booked Lexi's first birthday party. We're having it at a local restaurant to avoid having to clean the house before and after...and really, I don't have room for 30+ people IN my house. Every party we've hosted has been held in the backyard under tents...but April is just too unpredictable to have it outside. So restaurant it is. Plus, then, I don't have to worry about I just need to order her cake!